TVS

Just cm back from HSNZ. Had another intravaginal sonography(TVS).alhamdulillah the ovum has reached the required size. But the procedure will be on this friday.I need to get another injection n this time it will b solution of Pregnyl 5000iu. must be injected tonight which approximately 36hrs bef the procedure. I have it with me now. Stored in a case full of ice.alhamdulillah the weather is quite cold today due to the rain.so that the solution is safer. :)

The doc incharge for the TVS just now was Doc Mohd Zulkifli, the Jusa Khas C. pheww..a male doc. Last TVS was done by a young female doc.so tonite I must go to Emergency Unit of Hospital Hulu Terengganu to take the jab. Until that it must be stored cold.

Friday is the day.

berjimba ke hospital!

Hehe biasala! Arini aku ke hsnz lg. Aku ckp kat hubby-arini kt g urus buat anak!haha! Excited?weh of cos la..sape xmboh anak plak?
Pg td smpat tguk sket air zam2. Huhu

Bmula jumaat smpai ahad(yesterday) aku dh injek Puregon 50iu.ah xsmpt plak nk show off gambar bhn2 injek tu ;p sabtu n smlm,aku injek diri aku sndiri.xsakit.tp freak out la kot salah teknik injek ke apa.. Huhu.hopefully Allah is Extra,Super Duper nice to me n hubby as he always did.

So arini nk scan apakah hasil injection slma 3hari tu bjaya mmatangkn folikel ovum.once dh matured,can proceed trus with iui.

Skrg tgh tggu turn dftar ke klinik.huh 2prgkat dftar.pas kaunter utama ni,kene tggu plak kat kaunter klinik..Ya Allah rahmatilah kami..

~Robbi,laa tazarni fardaw wa anta khairul waarisiin~
<3 <3 <3

gumbira!

Ye.sy gembira,bbunga2 hati bl msg sy,bbm sy,call sy mndapat respon sewajarnya dari suami saya! Taapiiiiiiiii, sy rs mcm nak GIGIT2 hati sy dan dia bl dia xrespon lgsung n say sorry for that...sbb sy xkan kecewakan stiap msg dia. Sy xsuka gaduh2 tp sy jelas suami sy bginilah agaknya smpai bl2...jd izinkan aku GIGIt hatimu suamiku sayang.hikhik.

tears wont tell...

Mata bekok cobong.kecewa sgt...kecewa dgn aku sndiri jg dgn lynn suami.plz stop ur ignorance. Nangis xputus2.aku bnci kamu. Aku bnci kamu! I didn't expect u to fly here.just listen to me when I DAMN need u to share my feelings!kecik hati.tluka.tguris.I know u r deeply into ur job to change ourlife but plz don't treat me a pros! Wife is a wife.I shared n spared my time when u need me to listen but how on earth u did this to me all this while?we were suppose to follow all procedures for iui n man,u r far away!nit listening!play deaf!
This is our chance to have our own kids.why on earth u spoilt me?this is my chance to prove ur mom wrong.listen to me.just listen to me!

air dicencang tidakkan mau putus...

Dlm adik brdik,hubungn darah ttp utuh wpun hati mcm nk meledakkan amarah. Mulut melaju je mneg'shit'kn prgai2 xsemenggah. Arrgggh aku bukan le mulia beno sbb tu mulutku laju! Huweeek.. Marah tu surut mmikirkn kome adik aku.aku pun bukan along yg hebat. Ada aku pnh blikn korang brg2 mhl?bg korang duit yg byk? Ada aku puji2 korang sntiasa?ada aku basuh baju korang?ada aku iron bj korang,kmas bilik korang?ada aku msk utk korang?ada aku basuh bontot korang ms kecik?aku pun x ingt! Korang laaaagi x ingt.kut ye pun aku ni dok banyok nolong sbb aku dok kaye raye lagi,jgnla ada yg lyn aku mcm shit.espcly yg senget rahang.aku mmg garang ngn nko sbb aku takut ko buat salah yg mnyebabkn mak sdara ksygn kt sume maroh ko balik.ko mana ingt tuh.aku ni.aku ni yg sulung.aku ni yg rasa ttekan sbb mak sdare kt tu lyn ko mcm anak pungut.aku pnh tampor pp ko sbb aku tlalu takut mak sdara tu marah ko-ko amik mainan adik laki bgsu smpai pnjat almari tmpt mak sdare kt tu sorokkn mainn tu.aku nangis sbb aku takut mak sdare tu tampor ko. Ko tau apa aku rs?aku histeria.aku hantuk kpla aku dlm blk air sbb aku skt tgk mak sdare tu slalu mrh2 ko.
Xde sape pun tau tu yg aku tggung dl.xde sape tau.aku pnh rs nk bw ko lari dr mak sdare tu sbb aku xsggup tgk dia mrh,rotan,piat,cubit ko.air mata ko tu mcm duri dlm hati aku.cmni ko lyn aku?
Ko kalau nk apa2 ngn aku ko mmg jd lmbut smpai jari kaki cekam ko.aku bnci ko mcmtu.tp aku syg ko sbb ko adik aku.stkt mana sgt.tp ko slalu pndg aku mcm smpah.ko slalu perli aku.eh aku tau aku ni numpang umh ibu.aku tau aku tbatas nk buat apa2.ko ingt aku byk duit?aku byk nanggung bbn yg aku buat mcm bukan beban.aku sgt unhappy inside.aku pun nak ko fhm aku jugak.ko ngn adik no3 aku kalu nak apa2,mmg ko sdp mintak je.aku xdgki sbb aku dl xdpt apa aku nk sbb aku tau dl ibuabah xmmpu.skrg ibu mmpu bg ko.tu pun dr duit pncen arwah abah.ko mtk je ibu muleh bg sbb skrg ada duit.tp ko mgkin xdpt rantai mas mcm ko mtk kan?weh lu pikir sndiri la brp hrga rantai seurat?kail sjgkal.ko senget rahang sbb ko kata ibu mcm2.ko lyn ibu mcm kawan.ckp sy-awak?kalo ikut hati aku tampor.kuang ajor. Tp aku bkn hati batu.ms ko nangis panic rahang ko jatuh n mtk tlg aku,ko nmpk kan air mata aku jatuh?sbb aku syg ko.ko adik aku.tp nape ko lyn aku mcm hina?nape?nape aku?
Ko pnh dak tnya aku ni-apa impian aku?aku suka duk kuantan.tp aku nanar sbb kene paksa tukar.bkn sbb ibu.tp dlm keadaan skrg pun,aku la yg patut duk dkt ngn ibu sbb abh dh xde wpun aku hanya ada dan numpang saja.pnh ko tnya aku?pnh ko pikir x?ko jgn pk sama mcm abg ko yg nk duk jauh dan jauh dr ibu.nk duk oversea smpai lupa tgjwb.duit nak.rete nak! Dummy! Aku sdg mngakui betapa benarnya kata ibu sndiri-dekat bau tahik,jauh bau wangi! Aku rela jadi tahik di mata korang dr jd wangi di mata hati ibu drpd mnyesal mnyisihkn ibu dr mata aku!

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Ngntuk k...results of bad digestion. I hate this n to make it worst I am in diet of caffein. No coffee plz..

they r mine!!!

This is the 2nd week of school n I really2 hope that I can handle all works better than I did last year,as a teacher n a class teacher. Hope all the bolders that stuck my mind n way would be gone with the will of Allah The Almighty..please Allah,please..

So I've entered my class just now-1 Ibnu Yunus.who is Ibn Yunus?hehe I should find it out asap. Well the 1st class with IbY was a bad one snce it was 15mins only-supposedly 40mins but the mins were taken by the assembly n the reshuffle of class involving those form1 kids.

Haha kelamkabut was the result of being in rush.I myself forgot to recite du'a bef entering the class. :p bad.. Hey teacher! Rilex a n dun 4get to berdoa that Allah will ease it for u!!ingt tuh

uhhh nafsuuuuu

Nafsu nk mkn,n nak jd cntikkkk... Tp sume nk duit.malang,aku tgh kopakkkk..
Owh,nfsu sbrlah.kata seorg kwn dlm blongnya, jgn taksub dgn dunia

air naik

Ni sdg bsiap nk tgk air naik.ujan xbrenti dh hmpir 3hari..uhhhuuuu...bmbg kot bnjir besar :(

euuuwww!

Is listening to sharing is caring session btween 2women.same like me,they r ong patients.erghh feel dizzy k! One told the other how painful she felt after a procedure. Another one also told the same.n she might proceed with ivf.

euuuwww!

Is listening to sharing is caring session btween 2women.same like me,they r ong patients.erghh feel dizzy k! One told the other how painful she felt after a procedure. Another one also told the same.n she might proceed with ivf.

euuuwww!

Is listening to sharing is caring session btween 2women.same like me,they r ong patients.erghh feel dizzy k! One told the other how painful she felt after a procedure. Another one also told the same.n she might proceed with ivf.

KHAS BUAT RUH YG MASIH DI ARASY

:) msh dlm pjlnn ke hospital.sebetulnya di traffic lite dpn mydin-mnuju klinik pakar fertility.juga dkenal dgn nama manja,klinik nak anak ;) hihi.inilah ujian kami dua insan bercinta.cewwaaah..utk suami trsayang,slmt mnjalani sfa.arini aku mnggu result ujian darah n papsmear tempohari.mudah2n slmt semuanya.namun,tb2 rs xsdp hati n malu pada Allah sbb aku langsung tak bangun bmunajat mmohon kpsNya mlm td.aku akui tlalu gemuruh di sekolah baru punca keterlupaan ini.aduhh..sungguh lemah jiwa ini.syukur lawannya kufur.nauzubillah.. T_T

Apapun, Wahai Allah yg Mendengar hatiku,yg Mmahami kesedihanku(mn xsedih bldmalukn dpn org yg aku ni kununnya mandul),Allah yg melihat usahaku,berikanlah kami kkuatan dan makbulkanlah pmintaan kami.janganlah Engkau biarkn kami tanpa zuriat2.amin